Was it greed that came before
at the hour, with a knock on the door
It was a time for my decision
oh how I have loathed this situation
For ever since I could remember
I fear not choosing what is better
I fear that choosing itself is losing
and in losing I fear would be my undoing
Is it greed that came over me
like a need that I know is a want
Wanting all, where only one path I see
I wish there was a way, I wish and I want
But nothing else is there but anguish
With my indecision and my foolish wish
And here I am wanting a little bit more
A little more than I know, I am worth of, worthy for
Without you I wouldn't want the moon.
I won’t have any use for it as I slumber till noon.
Without you, I wouldn't want to reach the stars
I’d be content into looking at fancy cars.
Without you, I wouldn't want to go beyond comfort.
I'd be happy within my imaginary court.
Neither would I’d want to push my limit
when halfhearted efforts gives me a passing merit.
But you've shown me such smile when you've gazed at the moon and the stars.
And saw your bliss when we go travel so far.
Felt your admiration when we learn something new
As you delight knowing more than you once knew
Without you, I’d be stationary stagn
I am drowning in the torrent of emotion
Dumbfounded in the swirl of sorrow
Slowly being swallowed into depression
Doubt
Disappointment
Denial
Fight over territory
While my fading will fumbles in every futile attempt
to fight off fatigue.
All this while time continue to flow indifferently to my pleas
I wear the mask of normalcy, but it slow crack under my war torn heart.
Oh, what disaster have i brought myself?
What seeds did i plant to reap such unhappiness?
What happened to me?
When did all of this happen?
How much hubris did I had to think that I could take all the burden?
What folly did I had to think that I could be responsible
Stumbling, I am afraid
I try not to waste your patience
but my voice slowly starts to fade
and nothing seems to make sense
terrified, I tried, I still tried
but I can see you losing faith
and your tears couldn't even hide
and all I could do is clench in self hate
When did it went? Where did it go?
I try to speak again, but in another way
by glance, by touch, in any medium that I know
but you seem to be falling apart hinting you wouldn't stay
So I grab on to you with the last grains of courage
I know its now or never and nothing can be done
all my hope is yours, nothing else left but rage
Would you leave me into the dark, nowhere to run
May it be that the rain has begun
And here I am always searching for fun
but that time seems to linger well
looking behind the veil I become pale
For the truth is that my youth holds dear
The sun, the breeze but now it holds fear
for ti's new step I have taken
where I hold forth my heart with a maiden
Bell rings and rings on finger stays
and yet it seems to last for days
But now its been a month since it begun
I am now called on to union, now a husband
And here lies what can be done with the sun
For all I could think about is to be her better man
with bills, dreams and all of those wants and needs
I caution myself for my soul also has to f
I'd love to be the person you've wanted me to be
that happy go lucky, wild eyed dreamer that I was
But the thing is, it was in the past. Yes, that phase had passed
I am that bittered face, sleepy eyed,fatigued man before you
because you took for granted that I will never change
because I took for granted my own innocence
Because you underestimate what the world could do to me
and because I overestimate what I'll do to the world if it hurt me
so here I am, a dark reflection of my own self
the person, I didn't want to be but have to
Born out of my will and of survival
who set aside all those funny things and called it trivial
All I can say i
Because you got the spark by archaicglint, literature
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Because you got the spark
You asked, you shouted and you pleaded
That I should not fall in love with a poet
Because you're like a broken glass that's in need
of a bet, on whose hand it would meet
But if that hand was mine
I would still touch it like a lover
I would hold that jagged knife as it shine
and only I can say when it is over
because maybe an empty heart needs another
because maybe one body can fit two souls
and though it might cause so much trouble
maybe we just got the same goals
I would even whisper softly as I bleed
while you ask, shout and plead
for me to stop holding you close
for that decision is mine and its you I chose
Even when tears flows like a
I wonder what will happen
When all has been said and done
When blood has been spilled
When sweat has been poured
and when tears has been dried
I wonder when my bones numbed
when my muscles ache beyond pain
When all thoughts and schemes
have been won and spoils are gained
I wonder when will this ever end
this struggle
this battle
for that next breathe
Because I grow tired
and rest is so elusive
You're the kind who can't let go
everyday is crawl against what you know
With Love and laughter and all that matters
In tears and in the struggle we both are fighters
To you, to me and to each other we argue
But to everything else we do it together
Respect and honor
Gentle and tender
We dream for the better
To grow old together
In pain and in gain
Through summer and in the rain
To the skies and in the plains
Hands intertwined, our love remains
A new world, a new life
together we're a husband and wife
A celebration of marriage
With a love that does not age